Yes, when I am even mildly down the suicidal thoughts are instant. I can just here it over and over in my head. It drives me a little batty but I know I won't act on it, I have no desire to end my life. I find that strange too, not even having the want but the thoughts.

I don't know if it's a normal part of depression, meant to pull you down further, or something like Trippin mentioned with OCD. Having to hear the thoughts tho over and over doesn't help the depression much at all.