For me I can wake up and the first thoughts in my head are " I don't want to be here" then it will continually get worse as the day goes on, mood might be a little low but not really depressed even, just kinda down. When I am depressed I'll hear voices telling me the same things.

I do wonder if we're just hard wired that way, habit, trained from repeated depression. It does get frustrating. I try to ignore it, but it usually brings me down. I spend so much time trying to reinforce to myself that I do want to be here. And the thoughts persist, as if on auto pilot.