Hi, Im here and doing ok. Spent the morning paying bills and then walked around my local store this afternoon and did some shopping and on the way home dropped off the rent check and brought home Mcdonalds and ate, watched some tv and here I am. good and tired but here. .

My nightmares and flashbacks are still there but Im doing ok. Yes the benedryl is letting me get some sleep. Not on the best sleep schedule but right now Im not focusing on time schedules just going with what feels calming and so on for me right now. My nightmares and flashbacks feel "right now real " to me too. I have a relaxation visualization recording made by my therapist from our sessions together and that is right there when I wake up and it helps so much to have that familiar voice right then. Maybe you and your therapist can make a recording. All we did was my therapist read a relaxation visualization from a book and I relaxed on the couch and followed along doing what she was reading and while I was relaxing and she was reading we had a couple tape payers gonig one with a cd with instrumental music playing for background music and the other was placed on record. It turned out great and it sure helps to wake up and put my headphones on and listen to the recording. Because we did it during a therapy session Im able to kind of slip into the imagry of being in her office doing the relaxation visualization which is really cool.

Hang in there.