I'm going through a really agitated ratty phase and I'm doing exactly the same- trying to keep my head down so I don't upset my family whereas all I want to do is scrreeeaaammm and shout and race around everywhere!!!!!!! My fellow doesn't understand either so I understand what you're going through!! I'm desperately trying to use this site and my computer to focus my energy and stop me from doing all the self destructive stuff that I feel like doing so I'll aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!! together with you!

Sorry I'm not much help - good luck!!