Wepow you have been through so much. And you are just having stuff come up to surface all of the time. I believe this means you are getting stronger. Your mind is allowing it to surface because it knows you can handle it at this time. I completely understand that it sucks terribly and you are going through heck with your PTSD symptoms. I hope you can calm your body and find a little peace one hour at a time. Hugs girl, KC