((((((((((granite))))))))

I am sorry you have had such a hard week. I am also sensitive to where things are in my Ts office. I told my T that I thought she should glue all her furniture to the floor so it wouldn't move since I don't like it when I come into session and it has been moved.

My guess is that the previous client has been moving the chair. It might be that the chair gets reset at the end of the day or by the cleaners. So when your sessions were on monday, you didn't have this person before you moving the chair. There may have been a crisis or something that made your T late for your session. I"m sorry she didn't make the time up at the end of the session.

It sounds like she was trying to get centered at the beginning of your session with the water and the breath mints. Maybe she was unsettled by her previous client.

I have seen over and over again that you are scared of the behavior of others. That you are always scared that they are angry at you. I have been to the same place. It is a hard place to get out of. Always having to be on alert to see if others are going to hurt you. Always being suspicious because that is the way you survived as a kid. That is the way you kept yourself safe. I think you are improving because you were willing to look at other reasons for her behavior a lot quicker than you would have in the past. That is a good start. Try to talk to your T about this. I know it is hard.

You can do this.