I've never been a social butterfly, but I had some friends at work. Since everything started going downhill with anxiety and depression I found it increasingly hard to keep these friendships going - feeling like such a bore no one would want to be around me, and then there were the friends that were like 'why can't you snap out of it!?' - then I had to quit work and things just got worse. I still have one good friend from there but I find it triggering to spend time with her. I'm finding it increasingly hard to spend time with people, and I tend to isolate myself these days.. But yeah, I get lonely. It's a paradox. The Internet, this forum, some of the lovely people here help... Other than that I just kill time with tv and music. My T isn't happy, she says I'll lose my social skills... Not sure I even had any! I need to figure something out, as I don't think I'll be able to work for a while. Where else does an adult make friends? I'm too anxious for clubbing right now!
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