wow. What a thought provoking question this is.
Do I think my T is attached to me?
Well, I know my T cares for me as a person and as his client.
I also know we share a lot of similar human thoughts and connections that I am sure he does not share with just everyone.
But he has always been protective of his own heart. I tend to be able to see things about people that they may not realize is obvious to me. Kinda like a gift in a way for me to see this. But it helps me understand things sometimes.

My T has to stay guarded because he has one of the kindest souls I have ever known. He reminds me a lot of one of my brothers who I call a "pure" soul. When my T gets hurt, I can tell it is at the deepest part of who he is. He is not shallow in emotions.

A part of me being a client is that I know I can leave the relationship at any time. If my T allowed his heart to be open to me the way it is for his friends, that would be too dangerous to him. He could be seriously hurt by any client who decided to leave the therapy relationship without an understood reason. So my T has to give clients emotional space for his own safety as well as the client's safety.

For me, I can feel it after we get too close. I can see his retreat and going back into his world. Sure, it sometimes would hurt at first to feel it so strongly. But it has taught me a ton about respecting the emotional space of others. He has his reasons and I am learning that his walls of emotional protection around our relationship is a healthy response. Boy was that a tough lesson to learn! oy veigh!

Now it is nice because I have a safe relationship where I can learn about relationships. And I highly value the relationship I do have with my T. I know that he will always remember me because he saved my life and helped transform who I am as a human. And I also know he remembers his other clients because his heart is very big and that is the type of person he is.