Please don't get hung up on this, Roz. The 12-step program is an incredible one, and the higher-power concept is (as madisgram said) simply something greater than you that your can anchor yourself to.

Have you by any chance seen the American sitcom M.A.S.H.? If so, Radar had a terrific "higher power" that got him through everything: his Teddy bear. I'm not being facetious--it's whatever works.

Roadie