So a part-time job and part-time study are out of the question?

I would have thought that Canada there would be options for students to get allowances rather than loans? Here in NZ if u are under a certain income threshold or in early 20s living independently from parents you get to study and get money to do so, and are allowed to also earn $80 a week from part time job.

My job is meant to be 40 hours but is usually more like 50-60 ... i would love to not have to work sometimes but seeing as i also don't want work to know about 'anything' i can't really take time off either. So I just do it.

The other thing is that personally work probably holds me together more than makes me fall apart - its having a focus and achievable goals takes my mind off other *****.

Just my 2 cents.