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Old Apr 06, 2012, 01:12 PM
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Hello everyone. I'm sorry if this seems like a stupid question. I have been thinking a lot about different problems I have right now like that my best friend is leaving in a month for an 18 month missionary trip (our contact will be limited to snail mail letters), I'm trying not to fail my classes or just get terrible grades, I'm in a financial tough spot that will get worse if I have to take summer courses to make up for this semester, I'm still addicted to porn... etc. And I get SO frustrated at how long it takes to sift through each of these issues. I feel like I go into session thinking that I'm going to accomplish so much, but I leave feeling like I did accomplish quite a lot, but that there is still SO MUCH that I haven't touched. I also worry about when I student teach next spring, I will be working from 7:30-3:30 at least and probably some after-hours work. How will I have time for therapy? Any advice? Can anyone relate to feeling like the work will never be done? I entered therapy in October of 2010 and never dreamed that I would be working this long and hard. Am I really just that screwed up? Ugh.
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