Quote:
Originally Posted by Diane_Wilde
I relate to everything you are saying. I feel different, like no one understands me and my ideas. I'm not good at making friends either, and when I do I drop or avoid them completely when they do something I don't like.
I hate working in groups or being around people I don't know. However, I am incredibly lonely. I want close relationships, I just don't know how to obtain them and keep them.
The part about your zombie face is what I connect with the most. My family calls it my "permanent ***** face". Even if I'm happy or excited, everyone asks me what's wrong or why I'm mad. What I'm feeling on the inside is never communicated through my expressions, so people always think I'm mean or angry.
|
I am so surprised my thread is still going a bit.
This is exactly how I feel. I want friends but I am not good at keeping them, or something happens and I want to shut them off. I feel very uncomfortable having to sit in a room with people, especially if I don't know them. I "seem" very outgoing. At work I play a role, but it is driven by this "I hate being in a room with people I don't know!" At home I am more comfortable with my family but I still often feel like an alien around them. I am very driven to want to hold onto my family, though.
I feel like I'm not sure what face I should be making. I tend to get that blank stare. Sometimes i'm better than others.