Bow, no need to apologize...you learned something that's all. You are human.

And you ARE doing it...you are healing in the best way you know how. You are coming here and posting and sharing. You are going to T/P. You are connecting on other sites. You are doing it already even though you may not realize it - or feel like it...you are walking through the pain right now (actually, more like inching through the pain).

You mentioned in a previous post that you have "no one" other than your estranged wife. Do you mean that literally or do you mean that figuratively?