When I said I have no one, I meant it literally. My parents want to help, but they don't really have a clue about what's going on with me and I wish they'd just leave me alone. We've never been very close. My only sibling, my older brother (the favorite) is in federal prison in another state and I haven't talked to him in over three years. I don't have any friends that are close enough I could talk about something like this with them. Most of the friends I did have are too freaked out by finding out I'm bipolar/generalized anxiety/PTSD/OCD to want anything to do with me any more. I have a pastor who sincerely wants to help, but is completely out of his depth dealing with psychiatric illness like mine. And that's it...nobody.