I sometimes lie to get out of the hospital as well. I hate it there and would do anything to get out. Once it looked like I got better within days of going in there but then I got bad again after getting out. Next time I go I won't tell them my delusions because that is suspicious and then they won't believe me anyways. Anyways I don't want them to laugh at me. I am sorry that you are still struggling. I struggle and starve like a starving artist. I draw a lot and I learned recently that most artists don't make more than $1000 a year with their starving art. I haven't been eating much due to the depression. I believe most artists suffer from either depression or bipolar. Depression because they starve and bipolar because of the manic creativity.