I felt the same way. I was aware that not everyone thought like me but I didn't know why. When I was diagnosed I was freaked out. Part of me was glad there was an explanation for what was in my head but another part of me could not wrap my head around the concept of alters. I went back and forth from acceptance to denial to acceptance. I have come to learn that this is part of the process. What helped me was reading about the diagnosis to see if it fit, finding this site because I was able to see myself in some of the threads and taking my time and working with my t. The biggest obstacle to my moving more quickly is fear. But I am allowing myself to accept that this process will take time and when we are all ready we will all move forward together. Fear and all. Talk to your t even if you think what you are thinking is odd. It's not. And take your time. Take care.