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That's exactly why I cut.
When I got in trouble as a teen, the shrinks kept asking why why why? They tried to explain reasons why for me. Do you do it because you can't feel anything? Do you do it because you feel to much?
And I just stared. I didn't know.
I did it to punish myself because I'm a vile person. I don't really feel better from cutting, I feel better from punishing myself, like now I can be less bad for a while.
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“For one moment we are not failed tests and broken condoms and cheating on essays; we are crayons and lunch boxes and swinging so high our sneakers punch holes in the clouds.” --- Wintergirls
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