One thing that I know would help me in the long run, even with my eating disorder and my chronic tension, is exercise. However, I HATE exercising at home. Something like that is more of a thing I'd rather get an a gym, where I can get HELP. I've actually gotten some terrible injuries, just doing it myself (had to go in for some physiotherapy because of a misaligned leg that came from lifting things wrong in a bad gym I worked at). So, I want to have someone who can at least help me get into a routine. I like doing it in the afternoon, and I really enjoy getting out. It helps me feel like I'm better than just being stuck in my house.

...however...

I'm on disability. I get a certain amount of money. But, I can't get any money out of the budget FOR a gym membership! I COULD put it on the credit card, but I'm already buying myself a new computer, so I can actually WORK (my old computer is seriously ready to die, with crashes and losing files every once in a while), and I can barely afford minimum payments just in GENERAL. We've lowered our phone/internet costs to $60 a month for the next six months (after that, it'll be $75 or more...and that's the CHEAPEST), we have an old car that's about to die as well, and it's just expensive. I don't even have to pay for my meds, since they're covered, but it's everything ELSE I need. They won't cover things that aren't 'medically necessary', so...yeah. They won't cover things like the gym. It's really hard, because I can't work (I CAN do art, but barely anyone hires me, because I'm an unknown), and my husband can't leave the house for more than two hours MAX because of my anxiety.

I would just do exercise at home, but I'm terrible at doing it myself. If it was up to me, I'd never do it. But, if I make it an appointment OUTSIDE of the house, I'd do it every day. Besides, the rest of my family (my parents, brothers, and sister) go to the gym, and they're better because of it. But, they can't pay for my gym membership, since they already have a boatload of debt (mostly because they had to help me with my husband and me and the lack of money). So, honestly, that's not a good place to go for the gym money. What am I supposed to do? We don't even go out for DATES, anymore, simply because we can't afford it! Everything is to food, utilities (which are as low as they CAN be), and essential bills (rent (which is super low), car insurance, student loan for a semester of college I never got to finish DUE to my disability, etc.). I just don't know what to do financially.

I live in Canada. Is there anything that anyone can think of that could help? Please?