I was feeling good until I saw those numbers. I am still fighting with it. I am trying to change my number so that I can be healthy and my dietician told me that she won't let me keep gaining weight. I think that if I knew what the goal weight for me to get at would help. ED keeps telling me that this certain number is the max and if I go over it, then I am fat. It is a daily struggle for me to follow my meal plan. I have not been truthful with my family, my T, or my dietician with eating. I have skipped meals and snacks more than what I have admitted to. I wish that I could go to a time where ED no longer controls my life.