Candy, I don't think it was a blood doctor's place to add to your mental health dxs either. I wonder if he even thought of the stigma that a bpd dx can carry and how that can come back to bite people. You don't seem like someone who has BPD from what I know of you. I can kind-of see what his purposes might have been - maybe noticing the scars he could have been concerned about the possibility of sabotaging your treatment or something like that (hmm, sounds like something I would do, but not something you would do), and wanted to make a note. But he could have just noted scars from SI, and that would have covered it. I believe that I have BPD, and no therapist has argued with me much when I ask them about it straight out, but I've never officially received that dx. I think they are avoiding stigma and considering the effect that the dx could have on my career.
As for anxiety, while I don't know what business that doctor had giving you the dx, anxiety can easily be invisible to us in some forms. I never recognized that I had an anxiety disorder until my T was very blunt about that, and then dxed me with GAD. I think she had to put something other than personality disorders as a primary dx so that insurance would pay (since my insurance doesn't cover personality disorders), but my anxiety is really only being addressed as a side topic. I can see it though once she started pointing it out to me. I do see anxiety in you, such as when you worry about what your test results are going to be. That's basically what anxiety is - a range of feelings from worry up through more intense fear. If you worry more than an average person would or about more things than average, that could be anxiety.
I'm sorry that your doctor took it upon himself to change your dx in an area where you were being treated by more qualified professionals. That really is annoying! And I hope that I haven't just gone off on unrelated tangeants, and that some of this actually helps you.
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