suicide hotlines are there to help you whether you are on the ledge literally or just metaphorically. try this chat: http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline...elineChat.aspx
I called it a few weeks ago when i was having ideation. The online counselor did not mind that I had no immediate intentions.
Here's a warmline for the State of Ohio: http://cincywarmline.org/
And you can certainly use other warmlines if you don't mind calling long distance!
http://warmline.org/