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Originally Posted by Roz_G
i feel like the biggest piece of scum on the planet, ....
can't stop thinking about my boys ....
they .... have lived with foster folks on a farm since their daddy topped himself and i had a breakdown. it was only supposed to be temporary but then social workers found out i'm D.I.D. etc ....
i just don't see any reason to bother with myself any more, some pain is just too bloody much!!!
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Dear Roz, sweetheart, first off--Rohag is
so right! If you can do
only one thing, I hope you can find the strength simply to regard your feelings as unreliable. They are
not real, Roz. Your pain is so deep, and it is the pain that is making you feel all these horrid things about yourself.
Awful things have
happened to you, Roz. These things have made you sick and left you unable to take proper care of yourself or of your boys. But look what you did! You found people who could care for them. That's exactly what a responsible mom does.
Until your pain can be brought under control somehow, and you are able to bother with and care for yourself, you won't be able to begin to care for your boys.
You need to have some contact with them, though. When's the last time you spoke with them?
Please be in touch with us, okay?
Roadie
