Note: This post is not organized. Ill be posting things as and when they pop in my mind. There is no particular order.

So, to begin with, I don't really need help, I just need advice and opinions.

Let me start with things I think describe me - introvert, narcissist, funny, over thinker, compulsive liar.

Narcissist because I mostly think that I am more mature than the people around me when it comes to understanding life and relationships.
Compulsive liar because I feel the need to tell white lies all the time in order to avoid arguments and drama. My lies have never harmed/hurt anyone. All they have done is avoid nonsense arguments and drama.
Over thinker because I keep thinking about all the below-listed feelings, one leads to another. I continuously wonder the whats and whys of all these things

I have parental issues, which is something that almost every teenager has nowadays, nothing new in it. My dad is a big time narcissist & a complete hypocrite. I wouldn't like to go into the details, at least not as of now.

I have built a shield to look 'normal'. I maintain relationships with people as needed and have quite a few friends as well with whom I hang out a lot and have fun. But, none of them are true friends. They are just people who I interact with on an almost daily to prevent from being a complete loner.

I like girls but I just don't like all the 'girlfriend' hype. I'm close to a girl and I do like her. It's gotten to a point where I want us to be more than friends but I'm too scared to name it a 'relationship'. And the bummer is that girl is not going to get a boyfriend anytime soon either. So, even if I do tell her my feelings, she will DEFINITELY say that she cant get into a relationship right now and it will probably affect the friendship we have now as well. Oh, and yes, I get a bit jealous when I see her dancing or being more close with some other guy or even being teased with someone by my other friends. Also, I don't see what would be the outcome of telling a girl that I like her when I know for sure that she won't get into a relationship anytime in the next two years?
Plus, as I said, I'm not sure if what I want is a relationship too. I'm just scared of getting into a 'relationships'. They are just too many expectations and formalities from what I've seen.

I never have and probably never will tell anyone in real life what I just said above. Maybe I'm afraid to get judged, maybe I'm afraid that people will not understand me properly or treat me very differently once they come to know all these.

I'm not some extremely depressed guy even though that's what it might look like from the above paragraphs. I have no suicidal tendencies whatsoever. I know I've a few pros as well. But, these cons aka these complexities are a cause of worry for me. I can't stop thinking about all these things nowadays.

So, these are the different 'complexities' of my life. What do you think? Feel free to comment.