Okay it souns a lot worse! I accidentally missed my appointment got the date wrong, now it's public holiday this and public holiday that and sorry but the hospital can only do emergencies! WHAT!! There is an emergency in by body! I've been aggitated out of my mind, hot flushes and screaming and shouting (inside my head too) then there are the racing thoughts - don't even want to elaborate! School starts on Tuesday great and the hospital is a 45 min drive. I am just ANGRY!!! Feel like I could lie in bed allday, I am really drowning here, can't express myself fully, so I'm bottling up (oh my doc is gona love me when I see her)It feels like am living 2 lives sometimes 3 the me inside, the me with my hubby and kids - a bit better, and the me in front of other people - a lot better. How do you keep it up without exhausting yourself and landing in hosp with a nervous breakdown????? Ok that's out!! Phew! Further I am grateful for my healthy kiddies (one got stung by a scorpion last night on her bum) non poisonous but it burnt so I totally freaked out when my husband told me go get a torch!!! Hallo go get it yourself I'm holding the sleeping baby. Finished now, sorry sure I'm gona feel better in the morning.