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So I was stuck with job center on and off from when I left school till about 20, I was on both JSA and disability or whatever it is called I was claiming for mental illness. The place made me feel worse. Having to go in there and face them every other week. They are bullies. When I had got slightly better I changed to JSA and one women actually asked me In public what I was sick with (my mental illness) I tried to keep it very brief but she kept on at me making out like I had faked it all. That really annoyed me there were people standing around outside with bags of booze and cigarettes, there were girls walking in with bagfuls of designer clothes! There were people saying how they had forgotten their job search (if I forget or lose mine I write it on a piece of paper!) there were some people in a fortnight who had only written 2 job search tasks. People who showed up half hour late. Me I was always 10 minutes early, I had my job search filled in with 12+ things I had done, I did everything perfect yet they looked at me like I was the scum who didn't want a job.

Anyways cut a long story short I eventually got myself a part time job. It was the best job iv ever had. Everyone was friendly and nice, everyone went above and beyond to help each other, no one was catty.even the customers were mostly nice. It was fun and I was actually happy to go to work, my confidence shot up. Then the company just went downhill. We were told Christmas eve we might all lose our jobs so everyone had to fake a smile over Xmas holidays, then to add insult to injury I goes in on the Thursday, and get told there and then that the stores closing on Tuesday, well my next shift wasn't actually untill the following Thursday so that was my last day. This job which actually gave me some happyness in life was snatched away just like that.

Anyways 2 months I managed to last without claiming benefits again, I spent all my savings first even though I didn't have to. Eventually I had to reclaim. So I did so, I went for my initial interview there (I had been looking for work up until then aswell) I walked in the building and the old advisor I used to have who I used to think was nice, looked at me with this look of disgust on his face. I could feel him watching me walk up the stairs. Anyways I came back down later on and there he was talking to the guard chatting away, then he sees me and quite openly points in my direction they all look over and start laughing to each other and whispering. He's suppose to be my advisor again, last interview I had with him, well it wasn't with him, he was sat on the desk next to me while I had the interview with the other guy. They said it was because he had shoot off in a minute...he never did leave. I now have another interview but it doesn't even say his name this time, he's just shipped me to someone else. Everyone there is treating me like I quit my job when my file clearly states that I was made redundant.

Everyone else got jobs from the place I worked at, one even moved to china for a year as part of a teaching job. It's just me. I'm terrified of this job center place, it's even giving me panic attacks to go, but I live with my mum and it's a requirement as I need the money to pay for rent (long story) coming off the benefits is not an option, I can't out a complaint in because there's no evidence what so ever! I just don't know what to do, I'm looking just about everywhere and applying everywhere for work at the moment just not getting anything. Sorry for the long vent I just had to write it down somewhere