Maybe it's time to put everything on hold and check into treatment. You're not willing to do anything about this now. Just talking about it just to talk about it. Gonna stop in June when the stress is over? What's waiting around the corner? There will always be something to stress over, some kind of change. There will always be something that our brains will rationalize as an excuse to use. THERE IS NO EXCUSE TO USE. Absolutely none. I just made it through a pretty severe diagnosis which caused me MUCH stress, pain, heartache, doubt, misery, hopelessness....I didn't use. Maybe I sound like I'm preaching from a high horse, saying I can make it through anything without using, but one day at a time it's true, and it can be true for you too. Do it now. Why wait? Do you wait to use? What if you said you won't use till June? Can you do that? Passing out from too much cocaine....you're going to die if you don't stop now.