I'm sorry you were upset by that guy. There are a lot of people who believe what he says, and maybe there is the occasional person who goes off meds and really does get better.

It seems like what he said took some of the safety out of the session for you.

I am having issues fighting thoughts of SI also. I take all my meds as directed every day. I see a pdoc and a T regularly. I find that it works for me. The issues crop up because BP is a chronic disorder.

Also, the guy might have a mood disorder of his own. I am not a doc, but the guy seems to be putting off a bit of a manic vibe.

You aren't alone.