When I initially began therapy 2 1/2 years ago, I took a "break" quite often. I'd get overwhelmed with the emotions that therapy evoked and I'd quit. Sometimes for a few weeks but often for months at a time. Each time I decided to go back and picked up the phone to reschedule. Why? Because I thought or believed that the relationship/work with this therapist meant something to me.

Initially, I felt no pain . .. no regret .. .no abandonment when I walked away. Heck, I was glad to not go! I liked not having to hand over the money and I LIKED not having to deal with what was going on with me. ..Often, I felt nothing about the quitting . . .other than relief. I think that this was because I was numb to any feeling.

Over time, if I quit, I felt nothing for a period, but then out of the blue, I'd feel an overwhelming need to return. . . a feeling that I was missing something. The feeling was sharp and I wasn't able to ignore it. It's been six months or more since my last break and although I have experienced the ocassional mental tug to disconnect, they don't last long. I get a lot out of my sessions and even when I'm disappointed by a session, I feel committed to going back the next week to TRY AGAIN.. . to reconnect and make it work. I think, for me, this is important. It's too easy for me to walk away and forget in most of my relationships . .. I am a loner and a bit of a recluse. But I've learned that THIS relationship is worth the effort. I hope it goes okay for you!