I know that's a strange title. I miss having close friends, people I can hang out with, tell anything to, etc. I do have a lot of people I talk to and people that i know who care about me, such as coworkers, but not in a way that really feels connected. I was watching TV earlier and two people were having a heart to heart conversation and I felt myself missing that sort of connection.

I have a family - a husband and a one year old and I love them more than anything. The friends I am closest to (that Ive known for years) all live a distance away and it's difficult to coordinate our schedules. I would love to have a friend or two where we could talk about anything.

I have anxiety and depression, so it's hard for me to make friends now. I used to be very social, but since developing anxiety and depression, I feel like my social skills are rotting away. Conversations feel awkward to me now, like it's an effort to keep one going. I hate that and feel lonely and down on myself. I don't know how to get myself out of this social rut that seems to have developed in my life.

Thanks for reading.