I know how you feel, but all that you are looking for is in your husband. He is your best friend, your support systems, I thought thats what a mirage is built off of. The oneness and closeness, when you hurt, he hurts. No way you should be feeling like this and you have a husband to build you up. Then again it could be the mirage that got you feeling this way. You really need to sit down and ask yourself why you feel this way and what steps you can take to change it. only you have the power over your thoughts no one else.