Hi Kellyjo! When I read what you write I feel like it could be me talking! I relate so much to what you have to say. My feedback would be this. For whatever reason, expressing feelings for you (and me!) is just hard. It's really hard, and I hope you will be kinder with yourself about how hard this is for you! It just is! I also related to your feeling like what you have to say doesn't matter to others. I don't know what that is for you, but for me I realize it is that I have such little self worth and self esteem at times that I can't even fathom that anyone could be hurt or affected by what I had to say or how I feel. It's a lie as I know in my head people are affected by my actions, but it is how I have felt and still do sometimes. So ya, I get what you are saying Kellyjo! Hang in there and keep working at it. You seem like a great person and have a lot of compassion for others. I hope you will develop that compassion for yourself, you deserve it! Thanks so much for taking the risk and sharing this!