Keepgoing8 I'm in a similar situation to yourself at the moment, wondering if I might be bipolar when I've always considered myself 'just' depressed. At the moment I'm reading a really informative book (well, trying to when my brain can concentrate) called 'Why am I still depressed? Recognising the ups and downs of Bipolar II and soft bipolar disorder' by Dr Jim Phelps. He also has a really good website psycheducation.org, which is really useful to explain the subtler signs of bipolarity.

Before reading his website, I never knew about dysphoric mania or mixed episodes, I always thought mania felt good and so automatically said "no" whenever I was asked about bipolar. Now I've just swung from agitated/mixed to severely depressed I realised that this isn't the first time this has happened. My mood and energy levels will be averagely depressed, then my mood will go up for a few days and I'll feel almost 'normal' again, then my energy levels will rise and my mood will plummet and I'll be in this dysphoric mixed actively suicidal hell for anything from 2-8wks, and then my energy levels will crash and I'll be super depressed again for a while. And this has been happening for 5 YEARS now and I'd never realised there was a pattern!

*Willow*