Oh my gosh, most everything you say here could be coming out of my mouth, except for the one year old part- my kids are grown. I'm feeling so much better this year because I'm reconciled to the fact that my journal is the only place I can say what I really want, and it helps tremendously. But I still miss having that person, nothing can replace a person who knows you and accepts what you say no matter how stupid or nasty it is. I never had any problems before meeting people, talking to them, etc, but now i really do. I am a very friendly person, a good listener, but I think I've been hurt by people who I trusted, and I am guarded now, People sense that, I'm sure, so I'm trying to be more open and accepting. Anyway, good luck- i'm new to this site but it seems like a great place to find people who will listen, and to find topics that help us grow. Take care!
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Originally Posted by sunangel803
I know that's a strange title. I miss having close friends, people I can hang out with, tell anything to, etc. I do have a lot of people I talk to and people that i know who care about me, such as coworkers, but not in a way that really feels connected. I was watching TV earlier and two people were having a heart to heart conversation and I felt myself missing that sort of connection.
I have a family - a husband and a one year old and I love them more than anything. The friends I am closest to (that Ive known for years) all live a distance away and it's difficult to coordinate our schedules. I would love to have a friend or two where we could talk about anything.
I have anxiety and depression, so it's hard for me to make friends now. I used to be very social, but since developing anxiety and depression, I feel like my social skills are rotting away. Conversations feel awkward to me now, like it's an effort to keep one going. I hate that and feel lonely and down on myself. I don't know how to get myself out of this social rut that seems to have developed in my life.
Thanks for reading.
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