[QUOTE=Readytostop;2309836... how I felt and what I may have been thinking at the time...
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I have absolutely no idea. Sometimes I probably felt bad but that is just a guess based on how I would feel now. "if someone hits you, it hurts and you feel bad" rather than being able to say I remember feeling X. I don't remember feeling anything. I don't feel anything now when talking about it. And then there is always concern that there were bits one did not object to or protest.