(((((Puffyprue)))))....don't hate God..you're a great person and yes you don't deserve it. I understand its rilly hard to maintain hope to maintain hope when you're feeling like this,but we're all here to help and support.
My favorite is this one by Henry David Thoreau,it usually help me during the rough times..
'If we will be quiet and ready enough,we shall find compensation in every disappointment'