to go to the hospital or not...If I go, I might get stuck going to the one contracted by my insurance company, which is close to where I work (2 hours from home). If I don't, I'm not sure how long I can keep coming to work feeling this way. I don't have time off and I don't think my doctor will just sign me up for FMLA to stay home.

Maybe if I go to the hospital near my home and try to get evaluated for a day program, they will negotiate the need for me to be near home rather than go to the contracted agency.

Lastly, what good would it do anyway. It's just another time to listen to "go to work when you don't feel like it" type of therapy. Think about happy things and you'll feel happier type of CBT. Or will it be helpful and give me a chance to reset a bit....

Well talking to myself anyway. I don't know if there's a right answer. I just know I'm a wreck, but functional enough. Functional enough to get to work and do something. My family is in bad shape because my wife is finally breaking down and my daughter is struggling with her own issues now at 12 (some big ones it seems). My 4 year old is the only one with a stable emotional life in my family.