chien andalou, remind me again of your T's degree?

I was thinking about impervious this morning (again!), and how it looks from MY T's side. While i'm sitting there NOT changing, i'm basically telling him he's a bad mother, like a baby sitting on the pot and refusing to "go". My T has often said he wants to be a good mother and I didn't get it until this a.m. So why DO T's go into this business? Their goal each morning is not to "be impervious"; it's to be a partner in our change.

But. My first long term T. Though she brought me a long way, I often complain to current T that I told LTT the exact same stories - why didn't she HEAR what I was saying? I knew what I meant - I knew they were significant. But she was always cutting me off and saying, "That's what you're THINKING, tell me what you're FEEEEELING." Like my storytelling wasn't good enough for her. Excuse me???!!! Hostile!

So, SAWE asked for books to read, I seconded a recommendation of Butterfly's; if you haven't read it yet, you might wanna, it's avail for a penny on amazon, The Courage To Heal. It might help you with your question here of how much detail / how to get in touch with feelings, because this book knows about feelings I was barely aware of, it is awesome.
Then too I have been thinking about how much I let in the opinions of significant others, specif him!; T has been trying to tell me, not enough. Of course I don't out of habit - the FOO was foreign AND nuts. Sometimes I think the only reason they didn't honor kill me was because they didn't want to go to jail - and they were probably figuring my husband would eventually do it for them anyway. Schmucks, all of 'em!