I spent most of my life ignoring, denying and pushing away all feelings. So now I have talked about some of the abuse,....remembered some of my repressed memories and it feels like I'm doing so much better...not so much built up pressure in my head...etc.

But there are more times now where I notice that I feel all of these emotions start to surface and it seems like it will be too overwelming to feel them, to just sit with them... like if I did I wouldn't survive...

I have unhealthy coping mechanisms to numb all those feelings... I really need to stop using them..

Does anyone understand feeling this way? Has anyone found a way to get past the fear of the feelings to be able to feel them? acknowledge them?