Usually when I let myself (like times when I'm driving alone or actually home alone) relax and I start to think or process things... I start to feel all of these feelings... sadness or hurt or anger... but then its like alarms are going off in my head.... "this is not good...stop this...you need to shut this down..." and even though I try to tell myself its okay... its feelings from the past... ... my alarm in my head is screaming for me to push it all down.... and I usually resort to my main coping mechanism...

How do I start to stop shutting it down? I wish I could work on this with T but right now I'm on a break and waiting for an appt ...but I havent been able to work on it much with T because my anxiety is high and I don't express feelings much while in therapy. Anyone know how to move from stuffing to feeling?