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Originally Posted by Readytostop
I spent most of my life ignoring, denying and pushing away all feelings. So now I have talked about some of the abuse,....remembered some of my repressed memories and it feels like I'm doing so much better...not so much built up pressure in my head...etc.
But there are more times now where I notice that I feel all of these emotions start to surface and it seems like it will be too overwelming to feel them, to just sit with them... like if I did I wouldn't survive...
I have unhealthy coping mechanisms to numb all those feelings... I really need to stop using them..
Does anyone understand feeling this way? Has anyone found a way to get past the fear of the feelings to be able to feel them? acknowledge them?
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i totally understand! However, i dont feel like ive remembered any repressed memories yet...I WISH I COULD. it would make more sense to feel all this confusion if i had something to tie it to. I struggle with feeling feelings....allowing them to be there. I know neutral. Neutral is my feeling of choice......flatlined may be a better word. Anything else i dont really know what to do with. I dont even know where to start.
So ya, i dont have a lot of advice but it sounds like you're working on it and making progress and thats great! Hopefully you have a good T in your corner to help you! Best of luck!