Hmmmm, T made the comment after our last session about wanting to start recording the sessions. I made it very clear that I didn't want to watch any of the video. The whole idea of seeing what the others say just freaks me out to no end. Before I was dx'ed I was audio recorded during my sessions. I started therapy at my college and the person I was seeing was a student and needed to record the sessions. But I'm not sure if I want to be recorded. I can feel the whole topic is bringing up some kind of issue inside. I do trust my T and I know that the vidoes wouldn't be viewed but by the therapist in the office. I've been with this T for almost 10yrs now. Being treated for DID the whole time. So there is that trust and comfront there in knowing that this T's not going to do anything to harm me. I have a concern that T wants for me to see the others and maybe able to connect to them in that way. Maybe to learn of what really happened to us. I don't know of any other reason to record the sessions. The whole thing is just sending me into a tailspin wanting to SI.