i realized a long time ago (much to my dismay at the time) that while my friends did truly and deeply care for me... they were ill-equipped to process or respond effecctively when i expressed the inner turmoil i was experiencing... it took me a long time to figure out that it really wasn't their fault... and that it wasn't an indication that they loved me any less just because they couldn't produce a comforting/reassuring/whatever i needed at the time response to my pain and suffering...

i completely agree with what open eyes wrote - most people are not well educated on the subject, and even those who are educated may not have personal experience that would prove relative to your situation... while it is disheartening to reach out to a friend & basically get a pat on the back & a "it'll get better" or "don't give up"... the truth is (for the people who truly care most for you), they're doing the best they can with what they've got... which is, at best, a limited understanding of your pain...

of course, you also have to realize that there are some people in this world who are simply unable to process and adequately respond to anything that they are not currently experiencing themselves... that's just the way it is with some folks...

i sincerely hope that you are able to find outlets for your emotions (including, but not limited to, these forums), where you will be accepted & can have your feelings validated while also receiving the encouragement you desire & need to live the healthiest life you can...