I used to think it wasn't that bad either. Then it started controling my life. I couldn't leave the house without cutting and having my blade. It ruined every relationship I had. I had to cut deeper and do more damage to get the old feeling. I found myself cutting and not realizing it. It is an unhealthy coping mechanism.

I hope cutting doesn't ruin your life like it did mine.

I'm sorry it has lost effectiveness and I ope you learn other coping methods.