so many things can hurt at 15 ... or at 40 for that matter
but pain can be worked through
there is joy and life out there .... somewhere....
and you really can find it
Sometimes when a person is not yet an adult but their mind is the mind of an adult, they feel very trapped in their world. And it can feel like there is no escape at the time. It is such a bad feeling to have. Being trapped stinks!

But being an adult DOES change things around. It doesn't fix everything, but it does allow you the freedom to find out for yourself if there is anything fun in life worth sticking around to experience.

I am sorry you are in a bad place right now. Can you write it out and let the world know what is causing you so much pain? You deserve your voice. Your pain deserves to be heard.