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Originally Posted by LolaCabanna
To have sat at your feet with my back against your knees on the shag carpet , I would have open the flood gates of all the years of pain. Tears would have streamed down my face and rested hidden in the pinks of the carpet. *I just needed to hear you cared....nothing you could have modeled would have ever evoked that kind of emotion. No amount of talking... I needed to hear it and feel human touch at the same time, my downfall.
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it's kind of a place of honor, isn't it? a favored child position or something? I LOVE that spot. there is something submissive in it, yet powerful at the same time. I used to want to sit there with previous t/pdoc (he had huge furniture, I almost felt petite in there, it was great!). Current T said he used to sit with his mom like that.
it sounds like this therapy ended WAAAAY before it was over, and that maybe she couldn't handle your romantic / parental transference. Not so much because of the gay aspect, but because psychoanalytic psychotherapy wasn't really her thing? And she wasn't able to "contain" you. I don't see the therapeutic alliance. I see idealization and acting out, but not partnership.