The symptoms you are dealing with are very familiar to me. I have experienced them more often than not when in relationships. I rapid cycle and deal with many periods of mania or hypomania, giving life to those thoughts and emotions. I wish I was strong enough not to act on them, but I did and destroyed a dozen relationships by giving in.

I really think you are strong enough not to give in because you have the sense to talk about them without acting on them. As long as you realize these symptoms/thoughts are not what you want to do, you're ahead of the game.

Good Luck