Not doing that great today. I don't know if it's the weather or what but I've been really down today. My anxiety is keeping me crippled right now, which is not helping matters any.

I have to do stuff tomorrow--around people, no less. I really don't want to do any of the things I'm supposed to be doing right now...but I will.

Ya know it's kinda funny. I wasn't taking my meds a couple of days ago and for the past two days (after getting it filled) I have been. I'm actually feeling more depressed. My anxiety's worse. I don't know if it's because of the meds or what...the chest pains were back today. I doubt it's due to the meds but things just aren't good at the moment.

Nobody's done anything to me to upset me or anything like that...just feeling really depressed today. It's like something is dragging me down...fast.

Tomorrow's event (the baby shower) is just freakin me out. I don't ever go out and now I've gotta be around 30+ people??? Somebody hand me some major sedatives or something! I'll take a handful just to kill the panic and anxiety!

Another thing I've noticed lately is that it seems whatever comes out of my mouth people are taking offense to or finding something wrong with what I'm saying. Maybe I should just shut up and shut down...for like a month! Nobody would have anything to say then!