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Originally Posted by BlessedRhiannon
This is something I've been thinking about a lot lately. I had an epiphany the other day and realized that I have spent so much of my life trying to be who I think others want me to be that I have absolutely no idea who I actually am. That made me very, very sad, and I desperately want to figure out who I really am.
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This is me, too. I've spent so much of my life adapting, trying to live up to expectations... The 'as if' personality, the 'false self'... Currently trying to establish who the 'real' me
really is. My head's caving in with it!
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Originally Posted by triciadrich
I barely know my favorite color anymore..
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Me either! I've found myself in a position now that I'm questioning EVERYTHING - my taste in music, my style, my interests, likes and dislikes, my values, what I want to do, what I really want out of life and what I'm aiming to achieve, where I want to live.. maybe even sexuality. I feel like I can't be sure of anything. I'm 27 years old and I don't think I have any real sense of identity or who I am anymore - or if I ever had a clear idea. Furthermore, I don't know what's really me, and what can be attributed to depression, anxiety, or a possible personality disorder... Makes it hard to even answer questions like: am I a patient person? Am I strong? Am I calm? My qualities or lack thereof depend on whether you mean a couple years ago or now - or just upon the day...
And what is it that really defines us, anyway? Our choices? Our preferences? Our actions? Our possessions? Appearance? Our past, our present, our future? Our roles in our family or peer group?
Good luck with this assignment, Squiggle, I think it's a tough one!