1) I hate the label.

2) I hate taking medication every day.

3) I hate that I almost always have some problem with sleeping too much and usually too little.

4) I hate that stress or a late night out throws me off track so easily.

5) I hate that I can't be even somewhat manic without being sick!

6) I hate that I'm impulsive especially with my emotions. Sometimes, I should just shut up and think! I say and do things when I know better!

7) I hate that thoughts of impulsive choices makes me so indecisive at other times.

8) I hate that it is like I am a different person every few days, weeks, months or years because my moods take over.

9) I hate that people notice it and express concerns. Shut up! I know what is going on and I'm trying.

10) I hate that when I'm stable people tell me that I don't "seem bipolar."

11) I hate that any obnoxious, rude, abusive, negative behavior is called "bipolar" in the general public.

12) I hate that I so easily sympathize with people. I don't even like people!

13) I hate that I was psychotic as a teenager and still worry about those damned delusions.

14) I hate that people accused me of being on drugs as a teen rather than realizing I was sick! I feel like no one can relate.

15) I hate that I cut myself up so badly when I was younger, scars upon scars and the very idea of doing that again MAKES NO SENSE!

16) I hate that I can't decide on a career because I know I'll hit a mood swing and imagine depression and I can't picture myself doing anything!

17) I hate that my mood swings and impulsivity will keep me near the poverty line.

18) I hate that I'm so damn smart but, bipolar has destroyed my ability to use my intelligence! I had to quit school a few times. My university transcript is bipolar itself!

19) I hate the choices I've made and situations I got into and the people I met because I was moody.

20) I hate that I don't even know if it was the mood or if I really am that person!

21) I hate seeing my doctor all the time and that I need to find a new one.

22) I hate that I refused to accept bipolar as a diagnosis right away at 19 and went on to be prescribed SSRIs alone. I hate that I worry about any new drug because of those experiences.

23) I hate that my mood has been all over the place the last few months. I'm high then I'm not and it is ruining me!

24) I'm so tired of all of this! I don't want to live like this but, what can I do? Switch medication, again? Medication changes and me have a bad history, worse than this.

25) I hate that the so called treatment is such a gamble. What to try next is just a guess. It might make me psychotic or suicidal.

26) I hate that feeling that makes me LOVE bipolar and I hate the word manic.

I don't know how to cope with this sometimes.