hi gnomy

first im so sorry you are struggling and you won't get any cliche's from me.

it sounds like your stressors all lie within your household, feeling closed in sure can be a factor in how you are feeling at the moment.

one thing i thought of may help you, i don't know, but have you tried writing out how you are feeling and then giving that to someone you trust that could possibly help you?

You asked about the rocking back and forth, actually that is a comforting gesture ...let me explain, when we were young, just babies, our mothers (most of them anyway) rock us back and forth to sooth us, put us to sleep, therefore that rocking motion becomes a comfort to us.

In fact my Therapist suggests rocking back and forth when im anxious or overwhelmed!

I hope you get some relief soon as it sounds like you could really use it right now.

hugs and if you need to talk , we are always here for you.